I turn my head against the blue sky and se the clouds passing by.

I wonder if the clouds will change when a special person leaves the life on earth
I wonder if my thougts about everything will change when you not longer are standing beside me

I feel the tears burning in my eyes
I have never felt this pain in my heart
I don't know how to go on without you when you leave
I can only say to you everyday how much you mean to me

I can still feel the pain when a special person for us both walked on
I can't forget that day we discovered that he left
How much pain and anger that came.

I'm fighting every day to become better and don't turn back in time
It's so hard
I just want to wake up and see the world in a diffrent way
But there is always someone who want's to break my road
Always someone who hates me so much that the can't let go
Always draging me into things I'm not a part of

So many hated me and wanted to see me go and I gave up on a impossible love and walked on
Now years have past and still the same people are trying to drag me in the so many things I'm not a part of and don't wanna be a part of

I can't understand why...
I walked on and left
What else should I've done so there would be peace

I will never know
I just smile and think about who I am and about my belives
I know that I'm the best I'm can be <3