Each and everyday

I have had the joy haveing you in my life

I have done everything I could to make our lifes be joyful

We have had many walks in sun rain and snow

Always with laughter and with so many happy memories

I will never forget you

And all we have been through

I have continue this life without you

And it hurt's so inside me

I don't want to let go

I don't wanna sleep without you

I don't wanna wake up without you

But I don't wanna see you hurt

I can't be so selfish that I'm keeping you in a life with pain

It's better if I cry and scream out my pain insteed of

walking around knowing that you hurt

My heart will heal but you will always walk beside me in my thoughts

I will always love you

I will never forget the day I first saw you

So little and so helpless

I choosed you and you choosed me

I will never forget every time you sat beside me in sorrow and laughter

You always walked beside me

You never let me be sad

I will never forget

I will always love you

Forever.

You are forever in my heart <3

You stood in the darkness

Waiting, hopeing and smileing at your game

You didn't know that someone was watching you from behind

You didn't know that I understood who you was

You woke a wrath of anger deep inside me

The game you started are to hard for you to play

Only you are alone in the dark when you are sneaking around my corners

You don't know who's sneaking behind you

I'm gonna play until the heaven cry blood and the hell is screaming your name

I'm friend with the devil

He stand beside me in all my anger

I'm strong now

I'm not alone

I walk beside you and you don't even notice me

When you at least expekt it

I have sneaked up behind you

Wonder whos screaming then

My ........

My head is hanging low

I scream in the shadows of my problems

I don't know how to solve it

Forced to go a way that I thought never had to walk again

Looking in the mirror and hopeing that my pain is inviseble

Crying out for help to find a solution to this problem

I am alone

No one is comeing to help me

They who I thought would help me didn't answerd

And the tears rolled down my cheeks in disappointment

Once again I was wondering why should I stay in this life

Asking my self how to continue this life

I saw the answer in my eyes when I looked in the mirror

I not giving up

I am strong

Stronger then the most people in the world

This is not a problem until I let it be a problem.

I control my life

And only I

Walking away from pain.

I was stranded in pain of heartake

My heart broke in half

Tears was rolling down my cheeks

And I stood alone in the dark

The pain hurting on my face after your hand

I didn't see why you had brought your hand on me

You called me a hore and said that I wasn't aloud to talk to your friends

I stood with only questions going around in my head

Wanted answers you didn't have

Cofused I seeked answers in my friends wisdom

I found strength in my friends wise words and walked away

I left you with only the shadows of the love that once had been between us

I started a new life with a new will to live

The will to live for my belives and for my own rights

I was walking in darkness
Stranded in pain and suffer
I wanted to break free
Break the pain and break the suffering
Break the people who caused this to apear

I stod in the darkness and I saw a light far away
I started walking and I understood that the light was my belives
My belives could save me from those people

I started to run and I found myself leaving the darkness behind
The light filled me with strenght and happiness
I found out that nothing is wrong with haveing these belives
It's nothing wrong with the joy to care for yourself

I am strong in myself and I'll never letting go of my belives becourse they are everything to me
And they lead the way in my life
They teach me to see in to people around me
And if they people fail to live up to my belives
Then I say good bye

I

My way

The shadows of the past are following me.
I wont stop to let them get ahead in my life.
I lead my own way.
If I should stand there alone
Then I will walk alone and I will fight the appering fears alone.
I have been alone before and fought and I won.
No one can walk my road and no one can take it away.
I lead the way and if someone want to walk beside and be there for me
I will open my hand to let that one take it.
I will only open my hand if that one is in my belive an angel

Betrayed

When I met you
I thougt I met a friend for life
Someone who always would watch out for me
Who should stand there beside me
So I didn't had to walk alone

The time change things
And not always to the better
The truht came to be hard
And I smiled and chose to ask you to leave my life

I left you with only the shadow of the past

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